Bitter

There's no perfect family but if your pre-marital relationship were a troubled one, why must you bring sufferings to your subsequent generation and demand whatever you chose to demand?

Apart from financial and material support, my emotional needs were deprived and there was a huge void in my heart. I ended up looking for love at places where I should not, went out with the wrong guys doing the wrong things at the wrong place and time.

I wonder should I be sad or proud when a relative introduced me like this:

'Oh this girl .. she grew up on her own.. her mother doesnt bother much bout her
and her father is too busy with work..'

Beneath my ear to ear smile, look into my eyes. It's bitter with no memories worth remembering.

I don't believe in marriage.. you both showed me how. Feel free to disown me if I am involved with someone's husband or being labelled as a marriage wrecker. It's not by chance but by choice.

Love your spouse whole heartedly, be his pillar of strength and source of comfort in times of difficulty, laugh at each other's mistakes.. be good parents, bring up your children with full responsibility and dedication.. shower people you love with your heart's utmost sincerity..Isn't that what family is all about? Idealistic huh? No wonder it's difficult for me to buy it as well!

Never use my tuition fees to threaten me.
I doubt that I cannot make a living with my bare hands.
If I have enough courage (stupidity perhaps), I will not live this life.
If I have a choice, I will not conform to the norms of society, not at all.

I'm so tempted to light that menthol flavoured paper cylinder.
I need alcohol. Like the feeling of being intoxicated.

p/s: I am not as cheap as you think I am. Even if I am, you can never afford me. Period!