Heavy Hearted

The news came
My application was rejected

I dont know if I should feel devastated
or to try being optimistic when I am clearly not

Should I believe that it's a blessing in disguise
that God has better plans for me
Or this is the consequence of my own doing

I've always wanted to leave the house
But I know I can't bear to part with my parents

I love them I thought the additional year in Malaysia would be lovely so I can stay close to them. As they are getting older by the day, how much time is there left for me to spend with them?

Unfortunately, life has its own course.
'Man proposes but God disposes' eh?

*sigh*