hanya tuhan saja yang tahu

i blew up my psych paper.. i didn't know what the hell was wrong with me then.. i knew i could've done better.. lets see if i could get through this.. sigh.. hanya tuhan saja yang tahu kepiluan aku.. at times i wonder what good does life challenges do to me.. even if it's true that one becomes stronger, i do not see that happening.. perhaps it's not happening.. i am glad for this 2 weeks break, gives me time to ponder on my journey.. no one should ever feel sorry for themselves.. not even a wee bit.. i am glad that i have friends whom i can really rely on.. not many but how the friendship has beautifully blossom over the years.. you know, keeping good friends ain't easy .. it's just like sowing seeds all over the ground.. some may grow some may not.. some may grow more easily than the others .. some may be damaged by the weeds .. it takes time..

people change constantly, just another human survival skill - to be able to adapt to environmental changes and life demands.. i go off track easily but i am glad there are people who are able to kick me back on track.. coming to welly is interesting, to be away from my base for the first time.. no parents.. no buddies.. no family members..no familiar faces and places.. it's like giving up most of me .. most of what I had at home.. but with time, i somehow developed a strange liking for the serenity and tranquility found here.. gonna get myself a bean bag and sink myself into it with a good book and some nyammy coffee .. aaahhhh .. blissful :)