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I am perplexed with the complexity of life – how versatile humans can be, ever reacting to environmental changes in various ways. Maybe it’s just me, always wanting to see the world in grey shades. Maybe it’s just my self-destructive ways – like to be lost in this big world hoping that I would be found some day.

Who am I?
Why am I who I am?
Will I still be who I am if given a second chance?

What do I want to achieve at the end of the day?
Will I be happy if I do achieve it?
Will I be better off by not achieving it?

How is the world our teacher?
How much should we learn from the world?
Why are there no definite answers in life?

Are these questions from the core of my mind?

I feel very insecure. I do not know what truly makes me happy. I have no idea what I really need. I know nothing is permanent as change is the only constant in life. I get affected so easily by life circumstances and the only way for me to cope is to set a barrier in human interaction.

No idea what I am trying to convey in this post.

"To get what we’ve never had, we must do what we’ve never done."
Nice quote but what’s that very something I never had and do I really want it to begin with?

El-Shaddai.