Pain

No matter how many pills I downed, I can still feel the wound.
Why is it called pain relief when it has no effect on my bitterness?
How did I become so tragic?
I know I am feeling really miserable.
I can't tell what it is like but it's painful.
Objectively, I cannot relate why or how.
I can end up in tears by just thinking of me and my life.
How did I end up with my self-destructive ways?
Perhaps it's fated. Cannot be changed. Born like that.