Fuckstrated

I doubt this word exists in the dictionary but I am fucking frustrated with life. I made a draft yesterday on notepad but stupidly not remember to save it. Yesterday was one of those 'I-hate-life' days and words can do no justice in describing my utmost contempt and hatred towards my shitty well-being. Best of all, the shittiness is still lingering all around me at this very moment. What happens to the 'Everyday is a brand new day' shit? That's shit, shit you to whoever who says it. Simply, there's no logic to having a brand new day with same old shit.

So now, here I am, a cynical skeptical ruthless human with a healthy dose of paranoia, learning to see the world in better shades. Unfortunately, the harder I try, the more disastrous the outcome is. I stumbled upon this buddhist saying of 'attachment brings suffering.' I know it sounds very 'chim' and profound but I am still far from achieving that end point.

I AM SO NOT IN THE MOOD TODAY!