lost

i am sick, would someone offer me therapy?
help, help, i need a hand..
lost so much of myself to be someone who i am not...
but do i know who i am to begin with?

i am happy being all alone by myself in my very own world,
being comfy and angry but why did i let you into my life..
lets just pretend we've never met..

my apologies if i mindfucked you all this while..
i am sick of all the mind games i play..
i don't know if manipulating you is how i cope..

how could you possibly tolerate me ...
after all the things i've done to you ..
i feel so remorseful .. wishing i could redeem my guilt..

then again, maybe you have your own agenda..
maybe you dont.. but i can no longer trust..
it hurts so much to hurt.. but cao cao is right
I'd rather betray the world than let the world betray me

*in tears*